So many kind words

[balaa]

So many kind words were left to my last comment. I wrote it in the passion of the moment, I needed a shoulder to cry on, someone to hug and you were all there. Perhaps it is just cyberspace, but I feel your presence so strongly through the words you wove to guide me, lift me and carry me through a rough patch. It's ironic, in hindsight I am not surprised I broke down as I did..it was/is a year to the date all that horrible stuff happened. Most of you do not know what happened but I don't care to go much into it again. It involved a true hurt that haunts me even now from the person I trusted for over 20 years of my life above anyone else. I have forgiven,though even thats an involved situation,..but scars take time to heal.

I would just like to extend a heartfelt thank you to all your words, they honestly brought and are still bringing tears to my eyes. I feel again and again blessed to be a part of such a community and even to have a tiny sliver of a place in your hearts. You are all what makes it worthwhile to go on, you give me the strength and courage to face tomorrow. Amazing what a few words can do for one's resolve.

I wish you all the very best of Holiday seasons. May all your wishes and resolutions come to pass.


And now for something complleeteeellyyy different!



yuh..scary




Badge commission for Lizkay, though she isn't gonna use it for a badge XD still :D

I have a bit of tweaking top do on it yet but Lizkay, by all means use it as you like :)..I trust ya! I will send you a bigger version via e-mail and get the print made up tonight. Thank ya again for trusting me with her.



Foxfire icon..hope I got your chara right :).

and
finished version of that on dev. Erm..I need to edit the description, uploaded it right after the talk with my mom.

X_thor and Chika, havent forgotten about your icons. Patches, will start prelims as soon as I can, Kcrayven same..I'll send you a prelim of mid soon as I work it up. Guyver, will send your print as sooon as I have the chance to get to the post office. Firespace, haven't forgotten about your sketch commission, need to sit down and do a nice job of it.

I want to do more gift art, perhaps the spirit of the season shall usher new ideas and inspirations.

OH and deviant seems to still be toying with me, whats it been almost 2 months now? well im tired of their games.

Comments

[iki-pueo.livejournal.com]

Much love for you.

And dear lord, your shadowing work is just bloody awesome. Look at that gryphon. It couldn't be more perfect!

[mottled-kitten.livejournal.com]

Gawds, I need to get a commission from you. ;)

[kcravenyote.livejournal.com]

Wow, now those are nice arts. I adore your coloring. <3

Still would love a badge of KaHaTeNi. xD

[upon-raven-wing.livejournal.com]

Looking great.*envies how popular you are*
Wish I knew how to make icons like you, maybe then someone would comission me.

[kaided.livejournal.com]

You have every right to rant/vent in your own journal. As long as it helps you get better, it's all good. The online community really is something...quite friendly if you know the right people. :3 I'm glad you're feeling better, though. Take it slow?

As for the art...Mrrr...I want your realism skills, so bad. You're quite fast with your artwork as well, it seems. Very...productive?
Lizkay's badge is coming out out wonderfully. As iki_pueo mentioned earlier, your shadowing really is amazing. I always find that to be hard to get, especially with the fur adding more complexity to the picture along with other details. However, I think you did quite nicely. The highlights are coming out real well too. I love that shine, very pretty. As will shadowing, the dimension on the painting is amazing. Very real...very 3d. The facial features are very defined, very nicely shaped. Those eyes are brilliant as well. Very stunning...I can't tell if they're actually fully "realistic" but they look very alive and believable all the same. Very cool style, of course. Very intense colors...very vivid. I adore it quite so. The amount of realism displayed in her beak baffles me as well...I'll never know how you do it.
...Also, I should point out one of the main things that I really admire about your work: the way you can stay so true to the character's original colors and markings yet still make it look realistic. The main color seems to be in the same hues as the actual "cartoon" version of the character...the markings as well. They're very consistent, however you seemed to be able to integrate it into your painting without problem. What I mean is, the markings are very true to the character, very defined in shape and consistent in color, however you manage to make it look realistic all the same. The reason I find this so amazing is the fact that if you were more lacking in skill, the character wouldn't look as real. (Blocks of consistent colors often makes a character look very unrealistic, even with good fur technique. If the integration is flawed, then the piece won't have that realistic "believable" feel to it.) So...erm, kudos. That always stuns me about your work, as I for one find it very difficult to do. Very nice job, as always.

[fyregryphoness.livejournal.com]

Aw Balaa, you're such a wonderful artist and person...how can anyone not give you a big cyberspace hug when you're feeling down? :D lol. It's quite understandable if you wish to not speak about what happened. In fact, that's not what matters. What really does matter is that you know we all care for you and wish you the best and that you'll feel better soon. ^_^

Very lovely drawings! I really enjoy seeing your artwork in progression. :) It gives me inspiration to keep on trying. I still really stink at CGing fur...but like you said, it takes practice. I've always loved my personal saying of "If you're not born knowing it, it's obviously something you must learn". XD (That especially helps me get through math and biology classes. lol)

Anyway, I really hope you feel better soon. Be sure to take good care of yourself, okay? =) *muchoshugs*

[sandboa.livejournal.com]

Your welcome friend! THats what friends are all about,it would truely be a cold cruel world if friends never helped other friends out,even if it is just some simple words on a screen that does the trick for yas! You are quite a wonderful person even if you might not think it a times. I wish you the best in everything friend, may your holiday season be very wonderful,and full of happy surprises.

Are you still interseted in music friend? Please let me know if you are.
Best of luck to you and yours and have an awsome Turkey Day! ***Big friendly hug to the friendly liger!***

Awesome picture by the way! I am very envious of your awesome talents!:3

[dark-jaguar01.livejournal.com]

I am so sorry that I have failed to be there for you again here. I should have commented on your LJ that day. ;; Instead I had that stupid issue thing I do about posting on LJs and just sent you a YIM message instead that night you posted it. I am sorry that you did not get it but it is good that you have all these friends here to help you through this hard time.

I am very glad that you are cheered up now and things seem to be better. You try to find some joy in these holidays and I wish you a happy thanks giving and Christmas. *snugglehugs*

You keep up the great art too, for you are doing an awesome job on these commishs. :) Take care sweetie.

[wolftale.livejournal.com]

Woho! it's lovely ^^
*want my money now*

[joosephine.livejournal.com]

It really cheers me up to see that you are back to your happy, content self n_n Someone as wonderfully kind and friendly like you do not deserve to feel down, but rather to gain the world's appreciation.
*huggles*

[drawinks.livejournal.com]

Beautiful art, as always. Can I commission an icon from you?

[lizkay.livejournal.com]

The awesomeness! ^__^ I really love the result, your talent is gigantic ;D
I think I will use it like a badge, just without the name on it, we have such "double" badge bands here, where you have pic hanging on the band and a smaller card over it with your name and the other dates on, that's why I wanted the pic without the text ;), YAAY I am so excited!
I hope you feel better now, and that you will have a great holiday season ;) *hugglez*

[skywing.livejournal.com]

I meant to reply to you're other lj post, but I can never find the right words. You really are a lovely person, and your kindness and bright personality are just beautiful. I'd really love to get to know you better, but I know how busy life can be.

The art for Lizkay is spunkytastic as well. :D

[(Anonymous)]

Yeah, nice way to suck up and not draw artwork for your real friends. Nice excuse to gain popularity too. It makes me sad when people do this; they draw hundreds of pictures and put a lot of effort into pictures for people that aren't even close to them and are supposedly at war with. But you never do gifts for the people who ARE your close friends, maybe people you talk with often and are there for you when you need them. I guess settling a dispute with a popular artist is more important than your friends. Nice.

[leelakin.livejournal.com]

Whoaaaaaa, lookatthatbeak. O-O ♥

[drewthewolf.livejournal.com]

-Snuggles- Oh they all look soo amazing! What size tablet do you have? Just out of curiousity. ^^

[fer-lomarcan.livejournal.com]

and even to have a tiny sliver of a place in your hearts.
I'm say it's bigger than that.

Amazing what a few words can do for one's resolve.
That's usually all I have to offer, but I'm glad it helps.

Awesome job on the art.

I hope you have a good Thanksgiving.