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So I remembered why I hated airports..the lines..the crazy people with staring issues...random strangers..of which all the foreigners seem magnetically attracted to me >_>..which I suppose would be well and fine if the did not proceed to spill their lives on me..which again would be well and fine as it would fritter away the what seemed like endless hours of mind numming airplane engine noise....but of course I always end up by the people that are either a. pathological liars or b. drug traders who have obviously sampled their products for quality control one time too many...or something or c. old dudes that hit on anything that moves. Meh all in all the flight was cool, I think it was good for me, since I have turned into a social hermit..afraid of human contact for fear of melting into a pile of sub human mush O_@...not that Im not already a pile of sub human mush WOOT.

Its been fun so far, we hit Carlisle...to all you fellow car geeks one of the biggest car events in the US. Unfortunately I did not enjoy the first half of my trip as I made the ginormous(stolen from trish :D) mistake of eating two plague dogs..as I came to call them(aka hotdogs)...as they gave me the worst stomach cramps of my whole life! GODS I thought I was gonna pass out...well as long as it was over a GTO judge that might have been liveable XD. But after 2 million +1 trips to the bathroom..I recovered and proceeded to feed my car fetish for the next 2 hours.

Then today we went to the Renaissance fair here in Maryland. In all our infinite dorkdom, Trish and I thoroughly enjoyed ourselves and gorged on assorted deepfried artery clogging medieval goodness. WOOT for the turkey drumstick the size of your head XD....and apparantly everything in medieval times could be put on a stick O_o so I learned. Our trip to the bowels of medieval times ended on a good note. I discovered, ask and yee shall receive...for just as I made the wish of finding Jack Sparrow among the bossom happy women...I discovered HIM...*hears angellic music and some offbrand rum jingle playing in the distance*. There was a dude dressed up like Jac Sparrow! And the best part was he didnt look totally gay! Well..you know what I mean. But then maybe I wanted him to look lke JOHNY s bad I imagined the whole thing..wait no I have pitures! (will show laterness..I only took 20 of him XD). And finally we found and payed the outrageous price of 12$ for an authentic Plague rat O_o..yes have pictures of that..will post later... I know this journal just gets better and better.

Then we worked on trish's cougie fursuit some tonight and are gonna continue tomorrow. I rather enjoy it and am now wanting a Balaa furuit...for no other reason than the "OMG I WANT" syndrome.

Akay so thats the update on the trip so far. Aside from that..as stupid as it probably is, I miss home...well not so much home but James. I feel corny but I think I didnt realize just how glued at the hip I was to him..Im going through withdrawl x.x. I just never realized I would miss him so terribly *huffs at self*.

I'l shut up now and actually make a feeble attempt at sleep XD.

To any of those I bored horribly with my long rant filled with OOHS and AAHS at every turn...I regret nothing.

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I keep in contact with mother because though, expecially now (I won't go into the story of what happened), I realized I had to distance myself from her. James took me away from her and I think I have become a stronger person because of it. However, I keep in contact simply for the fact that 1. she is my mother and however much I hate some of the things she has done(most of which maybe she did not even intend to hurt us) she is still my only mother. 2 I hate holding grudges, hate only destroys me and makes MY life harder and 3. I am still building her website. Other than that I live my own life, I am not exactly a rich person but you know? I am happy and I do what I love for a living. I much rather create art than work in a deadend job that kills my soul slowly. This is what I love and I will continue to do it until I stop loving it.

As for your birthday, it would be nice to see you again, however I have two reservations. If I were to see you again, as long as it has been I'd much rather it be one on one and second I am actually attending an art convention that week so I definetly will be pressed for time. I have made some consderation for going to an art convention in January which is held in San Jose in. I am not sure whether I can or not, but I have no doubt our paths will cross(and hopefully soon). I always wshed you and I would remain close...as you know I was never exactly close to Gert or Igor. I was more the happy medium for everyone, ie the neutral Switzerland in our family. That in itself was not an easy place. I do not keep in contact with Gert, he has some growing up to do before I can face him again and Igor will always be the same way. I do not wish ill on anyone in my family as it does nothing for me to do so. I wish everyone the best their lives can give them and wish them to find ther own happiness. I have forgiven those that have hurt me in the past, some scars have not healed (but time will see to that. After all, those bad things in our lives made us who we are. I would like to believe, however horrible and dark some memories are, they have made us stronger in the end). So I live my life one day at a time and remember to find joy with the small things in life. If you would rather write me, my e-mail is xxbalaaxx@yahoo.com. I check it everyday and certainly it would be much more private to write e-mail rather than here in lj.