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I've been feeling quite unwell the last few days, for whatever reason my system is depleted and its causing extreme lethargy,dizziness, lack of hunger/thirst and nasty headaches(among other problems I wont bother mentioning). I end up taking pain killers every few hours and took a bunch of sleep aids last night. I'm sure its not altogether good for me but I just wanted to knock myself out..just wanted darkness...quiet and sleep. I felt like crying last night while I lay there freezing cold underneath the blankets..but I didn't have the energy to and for that matter I knew it would just hurt...so I just lay there wishing for sleep. Even when I did get up this morning, I still felt as awful as before. James is worried but I keep telling him I'll be fine.

So for those I have been missing online, please forgive my absence. I much rather not be around than drain energy from you folks and depress you with meh dribbley self.

Also..I've been art frustrated for days now, the ideas are there but I can't draw even a stickman right. I open up ps and seize up..and right now I cant even seem to sketch anything worthwhile. I hate sitting here not accomplishing anything, it drives me absolutely insane.

I Didnt much want to even post in lj..dont want to sound like a whiney baby...but figured its a good way to vent. I guess I feel somewhat better.

*hugs to the all the people whom I haven't much gotten the chance to talk to in a few days* special hugs to: Trish, baggy, tiv, scully, zugel, mearu

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*hugs* Hope you'll feel better soon.. I feel frustrated because I feel as if there's nothing more I can do than wish you well.. *squeezieglompcomfybearhugs*

I just HATE those moments when one have ideas, loads of concept and inspiration.. But when one try to draw it just turns out.. not good. Or less good than one wanted it to be or completely different than one wanted it to turn out. At least, that's how it is for me, so I think I can relate to your situation, drawing-wise.. x(