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[balaa]

I've been feeling quite unwell the last few days, for whatever reason my system is depleted and its causing extreme lethargy,dizziness, lack of hunger/thirst and nasty headaches(among other problems I wont bother mentioning). I end up taking pain killers every few hours and took a bunch of sleep aids last night. I'm sure its not altogether good for me but I just wanted to knock myself out..just wanted darkness...quiet and sleep. I felt like crying last night while I lay there freezing cold underneath the blankets..but I didn't have the energy to and for that matter I knew it would just hurt...so I just lay there wishing for sleep. Even when I did get up this morning, I still felt as awful as before. James is worried but I keep telling him I'll be fine.

So for those I have been missing online, please forgive my absence. I much rather not be around than drain energy from you folks and depress you with meh dribbley self.

Also..I've been art frustrated for days now, the ideas are there but I can't draw even a stickman right. I open up ps and seize up..and right now I cant even seem to sketch anything worthwhile. I hate sitting here not accomplishing anything, it drives me absolutely insane.

I Didnt much want to even post in lj..dont want to sound like a whiney baby...but figured its a good way to vent. I guess I feel somewhat better.

*hugs to the all the people whom I haven't much gotten the chance to talk to in a few days* special hugs to: Trish, baggy, tiv, scully, zugel, mearu

Comments

[kcravenyote.livejournal.com]

Hope you don't mind me adding you to my friends list. o.o I just figured out I had you on my watch list on DA and so found your journal through jestergurls, also a friend of mine. I also noticed you live in WA as well? :P

[xetsa.livejournal.com]

O____O Ah! *clings* You do not drain me at all! You always somehow brighten my late evenings! <333

[tivadu.livejournal.com]

Hey you... Hope you start feelin' better... :\ feelin' like that is AWEFUL... Ugh... And yus, good luck with the arts, that will definitely come back! I mean heck the things you updated this last week were astoundin'! ;)

ANYWAYS... *Hugs* Take care, okie! And start feelin' better soon

[dark-jaguar01.livejournal.com]

Aww, I am very sorry to hear you feeling really sick. T_T It sounds really bad. I hope you get better, your take care of yourself. And do not worry about being absent, you have been sick and the must come first before everything. If you ever feel like you need to talk with someone, my IM/AIM are always open. Your friends will always be there for you. You take care now and get rest. <3 *conforthugs*

[scullyiza.livejournal.com]

Aw hun. I had a feeling something was up with you, but I didn't know you felt so bad. I wish I was there with you to give you a big scully hug. ::BIGhugs:: Sometimes you need comfort from your friends to feel better, and you know I am always here for you. Always always. Never give up, hun. We all have slumps now and again, and I am so sorry you are feeling it now. GAWD it is SO frustrating that I can't be with you in person! Why does distance have to be distance? I love you, girl.

[drawinks.livejournal.com]

Everyone needs to speak out about their feelings sometimes. And you do -not- sound like a whiney baby compared to many others I've run across. *hugs* Hope you'll feel better soon.

[scullyiza.livejournal.com]

BTW...



:D

[vekke.livejournal.com]

aww . . . that feeling is horrible. I hope you start feeling better very soon.

I have that art block feeling too . . . I usually just take a break from art and read or something, and try not to feel too bad about not being able to draw. I'm usually good after a few days of not drawing, so maybe that'd work for you . . . ?

*sends lots of hugs* You don't sound whiney . . . everyone needs to vent sometimes. ^^ And LJs are very convenient for that. X3 I do hope you start feeling better. <333

[wursu.livejournal.com]

*hugs* Hope you'll feel better soon.. I feel frustrated because I feel as if there's nothing more I can do than wish you well.. *squeezieglompcomfybearhugs*

I just HATE those moments when one have ideas, loads of concept and inspiration.. But when one try to draw it just turns out.. not good. Or less good than one wanted it to be or completely different than one wanted it to turn out. At least, that's how it is for me, so I think I can relate to your situation, drawing-wise.. x(

[bagheera.livejournal.com]

*gives dah Balaa a big hug and a bunch of purrty flowers*

Illness is always bleh!!! I tend to be terribly devoid of creative ideas and talent of any sort when I am ill, too! So it's just natural! xD I really hope you get well soon, because I really really missed you and I want to see dah Balaa fluffy and cuddly and energetic and creative again! ^^

And hey, I got your DVD burned and ready to ship! :3 Waiting on KKitty's new mailing addy though! ^^;

[moonykins.livejournal.com]

*hugs*

I'm sorry to hear that. I hope you feel better soon <3

I wish there was something I could do for you, other than say that even though we haven't gotten to know eachother much yet, I do care, and I really hope things will turn out better for you.

*warm kitty hugs*

[dapplet.livejournal.com]

Aww, Balaa, I'm so sorry. *big floof hugs* I sincerely hope ya feel better soon, we miss you!

Having a creative slump sucks. I'm also in one right now... I can't even draw a circle to start a picture. Keep your chin up, you'll get those juices flowing soon. ^^

[basil-lion.livejournal.com]

Huh?! Balaa, you don't drain me at all! Everyone have their bad times... And telling your... friends... that you arent feeling well is okay. Why do you think they will not understand? That's what friends are for. *snuggles* Don't worry. Wish you get well soon. *sigh* It's not whining or something to be ashamed of. *hugs you tight*

[growing-rose.livejournal.com]

Hey, if I ever caught you online, you'd just make me a happy pusser. ^^