A Rant about what else? Art
Jul. 23rd, 2005 04:46 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
balaaRecently Daisy 7 posted a journal saying that there were a few folks that compared her art to mine. I suppose I should see that as flattering but moreso I guess I kinda see it as insulting to her. Really she has been doing the realism stuff longer than me...and I truly see why people adore her stuff so much. Its something Ive always wanted to do but for some reason could not get a handle of until very recently when I finally started unlocking photoshop's true capacity...that and I haven't had a tablet all that long XD.
Its funny...when I get commissioned to do realistic type stuff, I wonder if Im really that good. I have always bouted my self esteem when it comes to my art(lets not even talk about the person behind it). I wonder if people want art from me now because they really think Im that good or if its popularity...which for whatever reason I seem to be gaining on deviant. Some days I ride high, feeling good and enjoying the attention...moreso the truly nice things people say to me...and then there are days where the snyde mean comments of the past attack me and I just tend to feel miserable and want to remove myself from all the world. I dont want anyone to feel I am doing something malicious to them, especially other artists like Daisy who are just wonderful all on their own. The realism type stuff I do is close to my heart...I cant even say I have a style of my own when it comes to it..Id like to think there is uniqueness to the way I do certain things..but sometimes I wonder ..is there? Is there anything special about my pieces? But when people say I copied something, especially of my newer realistic type stuff, it stings the most because of how much time I spend on it and how much..heart I try to put into each and every piece.
Its a funny place the art world. One day you are everyones friend and the next all the people you thought liked you turn their back on you. I realize this is just online but to me...the people I meet online I treat like people I meet in person. Why? Because 1. I met my best friend online and then went on to meet in person and she has changed my life and 2. I met my fiance online and likewise he has changed my life. So I guess whilst some people may think I wear a falsa facade of 'nice'...I am not...I present myself as who I am in person, nothing more..nothing less. I always wanted to think the art world would not have the nasty politics most every other corner of the world had..because this has and always will be my only true place of refuge. But I was dead wrong. In my short time on the scene, Ive faced my share of indignation and watched others do the same. Art should not be a dirty game of getting ahead...it should be a place we can all call sanctuary.
But this won't happen and unfortunately today I find myself being the realist and lacking heavily the bouncy exuberant optimisim I usually display.
All of us continue everyday to grow as artists. Perhaps at times our stylistic pathways cross for a momentary lapse. Likely in most cases it is not deliberate, but rather a sub conscious way to explore what other artistic routes are open to us. In the end we follow the path destined in our hearts and find our home in art, something all our own. But never will we stop learning and evolving as people and as artists.
I guess somedays you just wonder if you are moving forward at all because all it feels like is you are backpeddling
Anyway I dont know if this rant has any point at all...but I guess I just needed to vent....
Its funny...when I get commissioned to do realistic type stuff, I wonder if Im really that good. I have always bouted my self esteem when it comes to my art(lets not even talk about the person behind it). I wonder if people want art from me now because they really think Im that good or if its popularity...which for whatever reason I seem to be gaining on deviant. Some days I ride high, feeling good and enjoying the attention...moreso the truly nice things people say to me...and then there are days where the snyde mean comments of the past attack me and I just tend to feel miserable and want to remove myself from all the world. I dont want anyone to feel I am doing something malicious to them, especially other artists like Daisy who are just wonderful all on their own. The realism type stuff I do is close to my heart...I cant even say I have a style of my own when it comes to it..Id like to think there is uniqueness to the way I do certain things..but sometimes I wonder ..is there? Is there anything special about my pieces? But when people say I copied something, especially of my newer realistic type stuff, it stings the most because of how much time I spend on it and how much..heart I try to put into each and every piece.
Its a funny place the art world. One day you are everyones friend and the next all the people you thought liked you turn their back on you. I realize this is just online but to me...the people I meet online I treat like people I meet in person. Why? Because 1. I met my best friend online and then went on to meet in person and she has changed my life and 2. I met my fiance online and likewise he has changed my life. So I guess whilst some people may think I wear a falsa facade of 'nice'...I am not...I present myself as who I am in person, nothing more..nothing less. I always wanted to think the art world would not have the nasty politics most every other corner of the world had..because this has and always will be my only true place of refuge. But I was dead wrong. In my short time on the scene, Ive faced my share of indignation and watched others do the same. Art should not be a dirty game of getting ahead...it should be a place we can all call sanctuary.
But this won't happen and unfortunately today I find myself being the realist and lacking heavily the bouncy exuberant optimisim I usually display.
All of us continue everyday to grow as artists. Perhaps at times our stylistic pathways cross for a momentary lapse. Likely in most cases it is not deliberate, but rather a sub conscious way to explore what other artistic routes are open to us. In the end we follow the path destined in our hearts and find our home in art, something all our own. But never will we stop learning and evolving as people and as artists.
I guess somedays you just wonder if you are moving forward at all because all it feels like is you are backpeddling
Anyway I dont know if this rant has any point at all...but I guess I just needed to vent....
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Date: 2005-07-25 08:37 am (UTC)First of all, there's a lot of truth to the saying "There's nothing new under the sun." Try as we might, we can't come up with something truly unique, especially in the art world. Everybody's art is going to look vaguely, sometimes even suspiciously, similar to somebody elses. And for some reason, some people feel it's their place to point out the fact. Personaly, it annoys the ever-loving crap out of me to hear how my character looks like so and such, or my style looks like whozitswhats's, so I can understand Daisy's irritation. But that doesn't mean that both of your respective artworks aren't entirely valid.
On the matter of realism, or really, pseudo realism, because I don't think either of you do a true realism (your strokes and color has too much personality), you're not going to help but get something similar. True, they have more of you in them than they would if they're photorealistic, but to the untrained eye, the 'styles' could look identical.
Now, popularity is a funny thing. And personally, I find it to be a cruel temptress. Oh, sure, it's fun to have a lot of people to talk to, and it's nice to have comments for your art, but it also brings on ill-will from others for whatever reason. And then there are the people who attach themselves to you, not because they want to be your friend, per se, but because they want to TELL everyone else that they're your friend.
Anyway, I wouldn't worry about those kind of people. The best thing to do is remain blissfully ignorant of your own popularity, and to remember to just treat people like people, even though there are about a hundred of them now to the ten before. XD And you're always going to have asshats who feel the need to compare you to other people. Best to ignore them as well. I'm sure Daisy isn't angry at you.
I'd always wanted to think that artists had more sense in their heads, but I'm afraid that human beings are human beings, and you will never escape jealousy, betrayal, and dishonesty, no matter where you go. No community is a sanctuary. But I can tell you that online communities really don't reflect true artist communities. Most of the fine artists I've met IRL have been extremely helpful, and are very generous with their ideas, time, and 'style'. Online communities, however, are oftentimes far too commercial-oriented, not art, and ideas, in the commercial world, are meant to be guarded jealously, and bought and sold, not shared.