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balaa ([personal profile] balaa) wrote2005-09-03 10:44 pm

pleh

I've been feeling quite unwell the last few days, for whatever reason my system is depleted and its causing extreme lethargy,dizziness, lack of hunger/thirst and nasty headaches(among other problems I wont bother mentioning). I end up taking pain killers every few hours and took a bunch of sleep aids last night. I'm sure its not altogether good for me but I just wanted to knock myself out..just wanted darkness...quiet and sleep. I felt like crying last night while I lay there freezing cold underneath the blankets..but I didn't have the energy to and for that matter I knew it would just hurt...so I just lay there wishing for sleep. Even when I did get up this morning, I still felt as awful as before. James is worried but I keep telling him I'll be fine.

So for those I have been missing online, please forgive my absence. I much rather not be around than drain energy from you folks and depress you with meh dribbley self.

Also..I've been art frustrated for days now, the ideas are there but I can't draw even a stickman right. I open up ps and seize up..and right now I cant even seem to sketch anything worthwhile. I hate sitting here not accomplishing anything, it drives me absolutely insane.

I Didnt much want to even post in lj..dont want to sound like a whiney baby...but figured its a good way to vent. I guess I feel somewhat better.

*hugs to the all the people whom I haven't much gotten the chance to talk to in a few days* special hugs to: Trish, baggy, tiv, scully, zugel, mearu

[identity profile] vekke.livejournal.com 2005-09-04 09:05 am (UTC)(link)
aww . . . that feeling is horrible. I hope you start feeling better very soon.

I have that art block feeling too . . . I usually just take a break from art and read or something, and try not to feel too bad about not being able to draw. I'm usually good after a few days of not drawing, so maybe that'd work for you . . . ?

*sends lots of hugs* You don't sound whiney . . . everyone needs to vent sometimes. ^^ And LJs are very convenient for that. X3 I do hope you start feeling better. <333