stupid lj

[balaa]

$%# thing just dumped the one I wrote out..GRRRRRR

so lesse ifn I can remember what all I said.

Last few days have been a tad disheartening. I am not quite sure why or what is getting to me but I am depressed and I hate it. I hate this feeling of busting into tears over the dumbest gayest(as in stupid) things in the world. Makes me feel like the stereotype of a pmsing woman. Freggin ey.

Neways was talking to scully and pchatting the other night and it realllly helped me lift my spirits and maybe let out some pent up frustration. She is truly a reallly wonderful person and you just feel at ease around her. Scully you are a genuinely wonderful person with ginormous talent...ya just gotta start believing it girl. In my eyes you have always ranked up there with the big dogs! And who woulda thought we are both immigrants from the same part of the world?? Small world after all. Neways special thanks to you gal for lifting meh spirits.

So here are the sketches from the last pchat we had:


Nookers with Balaa..love the sexy stripes on balaa...methinks she is going more into the tigrish direction rather than lion. I think its a lot to do with something scully said bouts me being sorta kinder the maternal sort...for whatever reason thats how Im starting to feel about Balaa...like she is a watcher/guardian sort. I see female tigers, perhaps because of their massive size as sort of more guardian types..so there you have it.




scully started on a horsie so I joined in

I like the way scully turned out on the left....something about it makes me wanna clean it up and color it.



Also have lotsa ideas for new pics. Including: golden tabby tiger...Tunu inspired off a site about oddly colored tigers and albino animals in general. A black tiger...aweesssomeee coloration on these fellas though from what I hear they havent found any of these in a while so no good photos..but spose that leaves a lot to the imagination :) which makes it more fun. Now to decide on a cub or adult/pose/atmosphere etc. As if I dont have two million pieces to do anyway...yuh.

Comments

[skywing.livejournal.com]

I saw that site (if it's the same one I'm thinking of, found it through your last post) and fell in love with the Golden Tabby Tiger too. I have an urge to draw them, the colours are just so preeetty.

[xxbalaaxx.livejournal.com]

yep its attached to that one...veerrry pretty coloration on the tigers..id never seen anything like that.

[dapplet.livejournal.com]

Those are awesome - I'm glad Scully was able to lift your spirits. Neither of you two should be down on yourselves^^ *snug*

[xxbalaaxx.livejournal.com]

*snoogs da dapplet* doing better, its just a frustrating feeling not knowing exactly why you are depressed O_o...its like come on get a reason already XD *gnaws on a furry coconut*

[distantvampire.livejournal.com]

That's where I found the info on the Marozi's, which is what my Kalina is.

eventually I'm going to save up some money and work out a comission with you ^_____^

[dark-jaguar01.livejournal.com]

I never knew you drew horses. Great job on them. XD Yeah, black tigers are extremely rare but I have seen many photos of them. They have very cool strip designs. ;)

[xxbalaaxx.livejournal.com]

really? Id love to see more photos O_O.

[dark-jaguar01.livejournal.com]

Here you go.

http://www.lairweb.org.nz/tiger/black2.html

I forgot that in the beast master movie that the cat in there was a black tiger. lol

[xxbalaaxx.livejournal.com]

yes yes thats the site I was talking bouts...but they were saying that the 'tiger' in beastmasters wasnt actually black but was a regular tiger or lion dyed black.

[dark-jaguar01.livejournal.com]

I had a feeling you saw that link before, it was the quickest one for me the find cuz I was laze. lol

I heard about that rumor too, but really do not know if it is true or not. But in my opinion, they did not really need to paint the cat black. They could have got a panther if they wanted a black cat. ;)

[mottled-kitten.livejournal.com]

Loooooove. <3

I know you don't know who I am but... nobody should feel depressed. There's too much beautiful world to be happy about, to be sad. <3 <3

[xxbalaaxx.livejournal.com]

*SNOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOGS* thanks hun much appreciated. Im getting better,, just trying to figure out what is off thats throwing me off my usually overcaffeinated hyper joyous state ;)

[joosephine.livejournal.com]

Balaa,

You really should appreciate your own talent, even if it hard. Sometimes it is almost impossible, I know, especially after having judged my own pictures with yours... A big no-no ^^;;
Just like you was cheered up by Scully, I gain new strength and motivation from your pictures. They are all so very amazing and wonderful, at least to me.

You should take care of yourself and your interests. Take a little time off drawing, just spend some time with yourself. It is hard to believe what some days without drawing can do to an un-motivated artist. The most important thing is that YOU are comfortable with yourself. You should not even care of your commissions for the moment. Eventually, you will find some motivation to complete them as well. But now, you should try to do what you want to do yourself. Do you want to draw more toon-ish characters? In that case, do it n_n

When you are comfortable with yourself, it is to be seen in your pictures n_n

And yes, it is the weird stalker from dA who wrote this... Feathers-of-Love herself =P

/Josy

[xxbalaaxx.livejournal.com]

*points* WEIRD STALKER GAAAAAAAAAAAAH..naawww your not a weird stalker, icon looks familiar yes :). And aye I need time off...but more time off just far away from the house I think..ive turned into a complete hermit crab

*snoogllePURR* glad my work can inspire you..I always hope it brings inspiration and not self loathing. Theres a great many artists I look up to and I think we all make the mistake to compare ourselves with someone that is unfair to compare with..sorta like apples and oranges.

[joosephine.livejournal.com]

*stalks*
My icon should be familiar, yes. I am the one with no life, always commenting on all of your pictures =3

Maybe a holiday would be good for you? That is, if you have got the time? Otherwise a small trip to a park or something would cheer you up n_n

...apples and oranges... I really have to remember that.
But you are right, I think most people commit that mistake every once in a while ^^;;

[basil-lion.livejournal.com]

Wow... horsies... *drools* look so nice and all so very cute! Leftmost I like the best. *giggle uncontrollably* =^.^= Right one is Okay too. More optimistic as I see it. Never knew you do horsies. Great job! Also like the rightmost part of the picture4. Maternity and cubhood is sooooo full of innocence, love and tenderness. And a massive deadly killer on the other side. Fondling a cub means worlds to her as a mother... Very inspiring picture, cant figure out why. Like vivid contrasting pictures (by theme) and adore the cubs! =^.~=

[celty.livejournal.com]

I know what you mean. I've been feeling the same way except throw in a few random angry outbursts. Hope you start feeling a little happier soon though *hugs*

As for the pchat sketches..they're awesome as usual. I especially like the wolves and horses.

[celty.livejournal.com]

http://members.aol.com/jshartwell/mutant-bigcats.html

[xxbalaaxx.livejournal.com]

OOOH thank you..that is absolutely fascinating! yes yes!

[kumanor.livejournal.com]

awesome sketch working, like always.
Hope you don't feel depressed anymore, I have been earlir this year, In know excatly what you mean. I'm glad you have friends like Scully
*hugs*

[kill-joe.livejournal.com]

Ohh.. that last one. ¤___¤ You're really getting a good grasp on feline anatomy, that's just too gorgeus. You going finish it up or something? *drool tsunami*

[hannahclover.livejournal.com]

Pomg Scully and Balaa just pwned me with horses

[glddaisy.livejournal.com]

man I can see you coloring that first and last pictures^^

[kitschyduck.livejournal.com]

you're the third person on my friends list with PMT today XD

[xcourtkneex.livejournal.com]

XOMG GO TO WWW.TIGERHOMES.ORG you have to sign up for it, but they have a golden tabby tiger there - they just call her a golden tiger, but i thought she was the most beautiful thing i've ever seen...the coloration looks curiously enough like bindi's character ;) IT MADE ME WANT TO DRAW SO HARD ROFL.

anyways, they have a couple of good photos of her, even if you don't sign up to watch the webcams. <3

[xxbalaaxx.livejournal.com]

I didnt even think of bindi but your right it does seem to look like her chara. I always did like the pastel feel to her character....and oddly enough Im not even a fan of pastel colors..go figure XD.

*plots to visit site* XD thank yassss

[mango-nikki.livejournal.com]

very nice! some o these would make amazin colored pics! =D

[casidhe.livejournal.com]

The canines look really good. Sexy balaa... hehe... I'm curious to how that might end up looking. :D

I was going somewhere with this... now I completely blanked out. *grumble*

[bagheera.livejournal.com]

Duuude, your paint chat looks like something from another world! lol! xD

I am so gonna pester you to come to our sketchup party some time. x3

[scullyiza.livejournal.com]

Balaaness!
Honestly, you are one of the most beautiful people I have ever met, and I'm only glad that I could lift your spirits, as you've done so for me countless times. I'll always be here for you whenever you're down or need to let out some steam, because I know how it feels to be alone when you don't want to be. I always have a BLAST with you in paintchat (and OC whenever it'll let us in XD), and I would give up anything to lift you up with some little doodles. X3
Love you, babe.
<3 Scully

[xxbalaaxx.livejournal.com]

I drew a sketchy for choo...I'll try and upload it sometime soon...^_^ Thank ya babe...merm mebbe this week we should try ocing..hopefully itll let us conect this time O_o.