*caught off guard*
Sep. 4th, 2005 06:41 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
balaamerf? O_O
I feel somewhat better today..did a bit of research to see if I could find a source of my problems and I unexpectedly stumbled across something I at first denied myself believing..then the more I read the more it fit me like a glove. From what I read it seems I have moderate depression. I just figured something was outtawack with my system since Ive been getting sick so much lately and having tons of migraines/headaches. But apparantly depression actually is an underlying cause of all the symptoms I am experiencing. Its funny because though I often act cheery on the outside(in a means to convince myself I am happy) I often feel very low on the inside. Ironically reading about it made me feel better..because all of a sudden everything made sense and I feel I can actually change myself. I refuse to go to a doctor only to get some 'happy' quick fix pill. I just need to change my diet(a looottt), start taking multivitamins everyday and change my lifestyle somewhat. I think I can pull myself out of this. I am stubborn enough to anyway XD. I refuse to feel bad for myself or let anyone pity me, I dug meh own hole and I'll find a way out. A special thanks to Scully for being there to hear me out last night. You have no idea how much that helped.
Nough blubbering. Some arts..and its scully's fault may I add.
dragon fly cubbies, the left one is scully..the right one is random...I found some awesome pictures of water lilies that have just inspired me so...and since im a sucker for water lilies because of monet..its all good.
Scullyyyyyy
I feel somewhat better today..did a bit of research to see if I could find a source of my problems and I unexpectedly stumbled across something I at first denied myself believing..then the more I read the more it fit me like a glove. From what I read it seems I have moderate depression. I just figured something was outtawack with my system since Ive been getting sick so much lately and having tons of migraines/headaches. But apparantly depression actually is an underlying cause of all the symptoms I am experiencing. Its funny because though I often act cheery on the outside(in a means to convince myself I am happy) I often feel very low on the inside. Ironically reading about it made me feel better..because all of a sudden everything made sense and I feel I can actually change myself. I refuse to go to a doctor only to get some 'happy' quick fix pill. I just need to change my diet(a looottt), start taking multivitamins everyday and change my lifestyle somewhat. I think I can pull myself out of this. I am stubborn enough to anyway XD. I refuse to feel bad for myself or let anyone pity me, I dug meh own hole and I'll find a way out. A special thanks to Scully for being there to hear me out last night. You have no idea how much that helped.
Nough blubbering. Some arts..and its scully's fault may I add.
dragon fly cubbies, the left one is scully..the right one is random...I found some awesome pictures of water lilies that have just inspired me so...and since im a sucker for water lilies because of monet..its all good.
Scullyyyyyy